Hey Sandi.....Been meaning to post, but have been busy.....I see what you are saying about the best of both worlds.....The thing is, I completely left her alone for quite some time while she was really serious about OM......She has cooled things off with him quite a bit.....He comes around some, but is not around very often......
She has told me that she really just does not want to have to answer to anyone.....Just wants to do her own thing......She is very hard to understand.....
She is going to have to sell her house because she can't make the payments......She had a house lined up through her job that she could rent for very little.....Only thing, it was about thirty minutes away and would cause problems with our 50/50 custody......Did not know how she would get son to school everyday......
She calls me last night and says she thinks she has found a small apertment in town......It is owned by a twenty-something single man that will have the main apartment in the building....She asked me waht I thought and I said whatever you think......She then says well, you know what everyone around here will think about those living arrangements....I told her last time I checked, she was single and 42 years old, so it really was no one's business....
She looks very young for her age and dresses even younger....I think she does crave attention from younger men.....She has had a hard time since she turned 40.....This whole thing sounds like trouble, but it's none of my business.....I just hate for alot of rumors to start flying around this small town and my boys have to hear them.....She doesn't really think things through some time..
To answer your question, I do see a pattern....I know she does not want to pull completely away and wants to feel as if I am around.....I know that is bad and I am really trying to stop being so available.....The thing is, I did my wild things and I am not very eager to date or go do things right now.....I am just trying to work on me right now......
As far as the kissing, it has been about two weeks since any of that has happened....Really trying to not get in that situation again......
Thanks for your help Sandi.....I am not going to give up, at least not right now......Keep checking on me....It helps
