Well, his parents are from the old country and the man rules the house. His mom talks to me all the time. She actually told me that she understands my problem but that I made a commitment to God and I should have honored it.(the woman's right) His father I know wants nothing to do with me. He will not talk to me. Its hard because we all get together, both sides for my daughter's b-day and I will try to speak with him, but he just looks at me and stares or just walks away. I think I need to be locked up in a mental ward for a awhile or maybe my OM could just move away--wouldn't that be grand! I screwed up again--I think. I had to go over to his place to get more of my stuff, he went to work and I was too tired, so I slept over. Meanwhile my daughter was getting sick and the ex was getting freakie because I normally handle the throwing up stuff and he couldn't reach me. This morning when I got to work, there was a message in my voice mail, but I heard breathing then the caller hung up. I had a weird feeling, so I check my machine at home and there was a message from my daughter wondering where I was. then I get a call at work from my daughter saying that she was sick all night and that she is at my mom's staying home. I asked if her dad was mad because he couldn't reach me and she said no, but I know he is probably thinking I was with OM last night--I am sooooooo mad at myself today, I'm an idoit!! Why do I continue to do this to myself. All day long I'm thinking at I hope he didn't drive by my apt. and see that my car wasn't there. I called him at work and apolized for missing his call. He said that is was okay. I told him I had to work at 7 a.m. because I have no sick time and I need to go to the dentist, so instead of working 8 -4:30, I'm working 7-3:30--he brought it--now another lie, what is wrong with me!
