well i was feeling good till today.... buy he beat me down like i was nothing again .... im giving up i am i cant take this no more...

im so weak im starting to belive im the loser thats how bad....

he swipet my face in the gutter like i was durt again... he took out 350 dollors out of the acount and said he took his friends out...


im so so so gone right know if u pinch me i fall my hart hurts like its never hurt in my life he just realy told me off...


i tried to click off i did so bad... and my computer froze just there and i tried and tried and nothing im gone no hope its done...


i dont know i called for help i did and nothing i feel like my life is about to fall he told me he did not care ... about me or doughter or nothing to just leave him alone and thats it...

well im so tierd and my head so weak i can fall asleep for days and try not to come back for a while just sleep and just sleep ...

i think ive put my self in the most lowest spot in the planet ....


Me: 35 yrs
H: 35 yrs
D: 18 yrs
Married: 21 yrs
H is over seas : July. 2009, "not happy now..confused" "don't know what I want" "I love you, but not in love with you"
Currently: confused and lonely