I know it's not easy, Rob. But one of the reasons I am being so hard on you is trying to toughen you up some. Don't tell anyone I told you this.....but some of the toughest talking men on this board sounded just like you when they first arrived. So, you'll make it.
As for staying out late at night......you know how early you have to get up and get to work the next day and you don't want to endanger that. You do what you can......and what you enjoy, but if you aren't able to stay out long, then do whatever. The point is to force a little bit on yourself so that you will not stay there and stew in your own misery. This time of year can be a very depressing time for a lot of people. Having M problems is awful at Christmastime.
Men have said the same things you are saying and then when they finally backed their ears and went out a few times, they discovered it wasn't too bad and they felt so much better. That's what we want to help you with.....not just how to work at the MR, but to feel better about yourself. You may not think that when a 2x4 comes flying by your head....but the heart is in the right place.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
