You know, I am a simple man. I didn't ask for much from my W. Friendship/companionship/integrity/motherhood/honesty. I thought we had all of that-not so much.
I know that there is a woman out there, a wonderful woman that has the same ambition/desire/morals/truths etc, as I do.
I miss the companionship of my W.
I miss holding her hand.
I miss kissing her when she wakes up.
I gotta stop this nonsense. She is GONE.
"embrace the suck" - Coach "don't go all "Melty Man" on us" - Puppy Let Go and Let God Finally "Got It" - 15 Jan 2010
Leave that misplaced guilt for the Catholics (joking - no flames, please!). Do you own part of the responsibility for the dive your M has taken? Uh-huh. And you're going to dig in that dirt to get right with yourself. But don't own it all. Yes, you did some things wrong. GET IN LINE. We all do. Don't dwell there. Learn there and grow.
Spreading cheer ~ Greek
Me45 H46 T25 M22 S21 & 19 D13 Separated and filed 8/08 Moved home 11/08
You know, I am a simple man. I didn't ask for much from my W. Friendship/companionship/integrity/motherhood/honesty. I thought we had all of that-not so much.
I know that there is a woman out there, a wonderful woman that has the same ambition/desire/morals/truths etc, as I do.
I miss the companionship of my W.
((((((SD)))))))
It's so sad..we all know...so sorry you are feeling this way...just wanted to say you are a good man - for coming here - seeking help - learning - you should be proud!
I miss holding her hand.
I miss kissing her when she wakes up.
I gotta stop this nonsense. She is GONE.
Salute
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
Absolutely. She is gone. The old R is gone. The old W is gone.
You will wind up with a wonderful woman, in a healthy R. It may or may not be with W. If it is, it will be a new R with a remorseful W who is willing to do the work to make the M better than ever.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
I just feel like I have done something WRONG, in not being able to make this work/make her happy/"fix things". I'm not sure why that is, but again, I need to start working on why I feel that way.
SD,
How do YOU feel about yourself? You like that guy?
I really didn't like me early on. And over the last several months, I learned who I was and who I wanted to be. I changed some things I needed to change (D is never b/c of one person) and began growing. And, I like me for the first time in a while. And I am much stronger than I have ever been.
I am NOT one prone to touchy-feely discussions or one who buys into the latest psycho babble. Psychology certainly has its place, a very important one. But, I just wanted you to know I am a pretty regular guy who, through this biggest challenge of my life, was forced to look at some pretty deep things. Things that helped me become a pretty great human being.
gima, I have some issues-no doubt about it. Being in the Army, and my position, I am very controlling.
Also, I am a neat freak, I want things orderly.
I have EXPECTATIONS of my W/kids, that they will do the right thing, when I am not around.
I have trust issues-based upon my first M, and my current W behavior. THIS one will be hard to resolve.
Obviously, now, I have self-esteem issues.
I dunno, I know there are many more.
EVERYBODY'S got issues, man. The ones who don't just haven't figured it out yet.
So, change what needs changing. Forgive yourself - one of my favorite expressions is that Forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past. Water under the bridge. Learn from it, but don't dwell on it.
gima, so what you are saying is, right now, even after all she has said/done, to NOT drop the rope as I am in an emotional hell right now? I dunno.
No, I'm NOT saying that. You will know when you're done. Like I said, with no A in my sitch, it took me longer to get to that point. Add an A, and especially the bitterness your W seems to have, and I could get there MUCH faster.
