gima, well, one of my friends just called, and asked me to go out tonight to watch the football game. I declined at first, but he wouldn't take no so I am going.
I am normally NOT the going out to a bar guy, but this place has food, and is a sports bar, so hopefully it will be fun.
I do need to realize that I can only make ME happy. Looking back, my W was a miserable woman most of our M. She constanltly complained, and just generally made me feel inadequate with her words. I have got to get out behind that rock. I need to start to build my fragile self-seteem back up.
It is going to be difficult as she has completely chopped me off at the knees the last 2 days...
All of this mess is a tremendous blow to the self esteem. I get that. B/c I lived it too.
DO go with your buddy. Just don't drink and call, got it? Give your buddy your phone if need be.
It was hard for me to go out at first. And the first time or two I did not enjoy it. But then I realized it was ok to go have a good time. And I started liking it again. And the best part was my self confidence and self esteem grew each time I went out. THAT's recovery.
This can be a lengthy process, but you will emerge on the other side a MUCH better person, father and a he11 of a prize for some very lucky lady if you so choose. There IS life out there.
