CC, My W reached this kind of low in her bipolar swings three years ago. I felt some of the same conflict you expressed. Especially the parts about wanting to help/fix her problems, even when you know that can't and shouldn't. I think I handled it similar to you. It was so hard then, and our M wasn't a question then. It must be so much harder with the pressure of your sitch! You are a good man! I'm praying for your wife, and mine too.
I've gone through some REALLY dark places along side my W throughout our relationship. I was always her "rock". It's very hard to not want to "rescue" her now, but I think I've done a good job so far at balancing that fine line. Lovingly detached.
I appreciate the compliments, although I don't expect them. I've always looked as myself as a "nice guy", but I'm only now starting to see myself as a "good man".
As far as my son goes...If God brought my W into my life for no other reason than to create him, then I still feel VERY BLESSED.
Me 45 WAW 36 S8 T 15 M 12 Multiple PA's since 6/07 W moved out 10/25/09 I filed D 12/29/09 Sitch