Can you set up a new email account where you can forward the texts/emails to? Just forward them there until you can handle seeing them.
I don't think I would respond to them. You aren't going to reach her anyway. You only risk getting down in the mud with her.
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This whole deployment has turned out to be the worst year of my life. I have lost so much.
I understand. It probably will be the worst year of your life...but it can also be the best. I know that sounds nuts, but you have been given an opportunity for personal growth and getting in touch with who you are. It's not what any of us here want, nor the way we want to learn it. But, as awful as D is, there is a chance to learn more about yourself and your inner strength than you can even imagine right now.
Hang in there. There is much to learn.
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I feel like a failure, and she has made me feel like I didn't make her happy, and now that she is sleeping around-THAT makes her happy
YOU aren't the failure here. She is. YOU aren't walking out on your M.
It takes two people to stay M'd, and only one to tear it apart.
And, she IS NOT happy. If she were, why would she take the time to keep contacting the one person she says made her unhappy? If she were happy, you would not be hearing from her.