Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Well,
I need some advice as far as what to say/write if my W sends me any more texts/pics of her and whoever she is with that day.

I know she is going to do it, just out of sheer spite, and it is going to hurt me. I just want to handle this the right way the rest of the way down the road.

It is really difficult to process what has happened over the last 24/48 hours. She has done so much to hurt me.

I find it repulsive that she has turned into something that I despise, and feel pity for.

I am trying to block out the texts, and pic, but there they are on my phone, and in my mind.

This whole deployment has turned out to be the worst year of my life. I have lost so much.

I feel like a failure, and she has made me feel like I didn't make her happy, and now that she is sleeping around-THAT makes her happy - WTF??