Do you have family to share the holidays with? Kiddos? Try to keep it as normal as possible? SO hard...I'll repeat what I told Opt a moment ago...thinking back on last year's nightmarish holidays, one thing I did was I WENT to my folks, I went to the parties, I DID stuff...I cooked my traditional dishes...I was on the bloody edge the whole time (I was 90% sure our M was over) but I DID find peac, love and joy...even if it was fleeting, it was there.