Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Hi Freckle, thanks for dropping by.

but is there a reason your cousin thinks she's your mother

Actually, yes. My parents split when I was 12, physically and were at each other's throats for years prior. Nothing I ever did was good enough for my "father" he had really no involvement in the shaping of my life, and my mother was just and still is a plain old alky. I was kicked back and forth from house to house until finally on my ass alone at 14.

I never really knew what it was like to have a mother until my (ex)MIL. She was the greatest person ever in my book and as I start to friggen cry at my desk here at work, I miss her deary. She passed in 2006 after a 4 year bout with brain cancer. So for only 8 short years did I know what the love of a mother feels like. So my cousin came along and volunteered. As consequence to the life I peddled through, I tend to be "wreckless" or "thoughtless" in the way I do things from time to time. After all, the only person I've really had to answer to is XW.

i guess she also thinks that since I hadn't really any parents, I need help raising my own. That's where her help is not needed as her tactics are very strict, of which I was when we were a complete family. However, during and post D, I let them slide a bit too much at times on things in fears of them resenting me and not wanting to visit.

make sense?