Thanks all for your advice and kind words...am so sad and so distraught...friend spent some time with me and brought me soup...took my son to spend night at her house...I tried to have phone conversation with H...it was pointless..he is and was abusive and mean...I had calmed down enough to ask him to at least come home for Christmas and we'd figure out what we were doing after that...and he said no..he wanted to be as far away from me as possible...which is actually ok with me..at this point that's probably the best way for their to be peace on my piece of Earth... Merry Christmas to me. LOL I'm actually thinking of telling him that his not showing up was the best present he's ever given me...but I have a sick feeling that he will show up...he's like that...says one thing, does another...so we'll see... I don't know what I want today....
Fortunately...I don't want to drink and I do want to pray about all of this...other than that..I'm very confused.
I agree with just about everything everyone said. I'm just tired and angry and have worked so hard for the last five months...for what? Christmas eve is my five months sobriety birthday...I am psyched about that...it's been a good five months for the most part...the worst parts have all involved him...hmmm is God telling me something?
Anyway, I am going to get some rest now...thanks to all of you...and hugs back at ya all......
