K4D It's a Wonderful Life

[K4D]

What walk am I not walking? The detachment road? Is that the one I am not walking? What else am I doing that is so wrong? Because I think about my W during the day, I am not walking? Walking where? Out of her life? I am not in her life except for when it involves the kids. I am walking forward in my own life. Maybe it isn't the same road that some of you take. But it is going forward.

This is flippin ridiculous.

Bottom line, I am not going to forget about my W. I am not going to just stop thinking about her like she doesn't exist. I am not just going to put all hope out of my mind for a future reconciliation. Yes, she is living her own life without me and without interference from me. What other road does it take 3 ghosts to walk that everyone is so consumed with me walking? I am living my life and doing what I need to trying to move forward in directions that need to happen. I want to move forward with my career. I raising my daughters part time and involved with them as much as possible. I helping out on my off time with people and things.

This is mind boggling. Because I refuse to treat my situation as forever hopeless and forget about it, I am not walking some golden road?

Some of you have chosen to take the road that works for you. I am taking the road that works for me.

I am not "stuck" in life. I may feel stuck in my career options sometimes because I haven't thought them through the best possible route. I may feel stuck in fidelity wise because I am married with kids. But I am definitely not stuck in life. Ok, so I don't always have the brightest outlook on life and my future. So it isn't so far turning out the way I had hoped. It doesn't mean that I am not trying to find ways to improve it without my W. So the greatest joy would be a reconciliation with my W and to have my family back together. Big deal. That is what would make me happy. But it isn't happening right now. So I am doing other things with my life because of it.

But "stuck" in life? Cmon.

Kevin