I just don't want to care anymore that is the plain truth of the matter. He is rude, mean, and abusive in his way of arguing and fighting with me...calls me a c*nt, b*tch, sl*t, and a drunken wh*re...and more....even when I say stop name calling..he continues...it doesn't wake him up to his language or shake him out of it...I have to hang up on him or walk away to put an end to it...he threatened to beat the sh$t out of me if I called his folks last night....because I said I would if he hung up on me as I needed someone to talk to and have no relatives here...I should not have said that...but it did not warrant a threat of a beating either...he has hit me twice in six years...and I was drunk both times so can't really explain the circumstances....just know it was wrong. I thought we were making progress but we are not. I give up. I quit. I throw down my marital torch. I am going to db but for me...not for the marriage...I want a divorce. I am just going to practice the db principles that apply to taking care of one's self..as they are sound, solid, and great for self awareness and self esteem...will stay on boards...but don't know where...need to leave piecing.....as this marriage is in pieces........
