Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

I have been really active lately with after work stuff, every night has had something to do.

I joined a new gym, and taking BJJ lessons now, something I have always wanted to do, so really looking forward to that, just hope I am not to old to keep up with the young people!

I had an interesting conversation with the IC, I told him about the things above I vented about. He believes I handled it correctly as I could.

He did make a couple comments that I thought were interesting, if a little odd. After the discussion, I told him I do not want to be the man, or in the place, where I am angry or gloating over STBXW, and he agreed. He did say though, that you would be justified in asking her "how is this D working out for you?" As realities like the above that she is responsible for these things now. I told him, that in some respects that may feel good, but that no good would come of it, and I don't want to be that type of person.

He also stated, as he deals with cases like this on regular basis, and been in the field for years, and been working with me for a while, that she likely has someone else that she has been involved with for a while, at least EA, if not PA, so to not be surprised if I find that out. He also said don't be surprised if she is involved with someone who themselves is married as well.

I acknowledge and accept that is likely, but I told him I just don't want to know at this point.

I have over the last few weeks, caught myself thinking about, what if STBXW were to come back to me and ask to reconcile? My thoughts on that were somewhat suprisingly, no! I would not want her back currently.

I think I see her a bit more clearly now. I think I am progressing on the detachment front, as those thoughts have been genuine.