Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

journalizing

As the song goes, oh, what a night....

On my way 'home' I was stopping at the local grocery store to get some things for dinner, etc. When I parked my truck, I really had to go to the bathroom, so I opted to go across the street to my favorite pub that XW and I were at the previous night, use the restroom and down a quickie draft then shop.

So I'm sitting there and just recanting the previous evening and couldn't stop thinking about X and all these new feelings and experiences we've had and will. So, I text X 'deja vue, here at OBP, but without you, miss you'. She replies a few minutes later claifying where I was at, then asks to dinner with the kids, her treat. I'm not going to pass up my favorite wing night especially with all 4 of us together, so I asked my cousin if she'd mind I have dinner with them instead of at home. That sparked a developing situation with my cousin, but more on that later. Basically she says we're sending the kids mixed messages? They loved going to Wednesday night dinner, period, they always looked forward to it, I really don't see what the problem is.

So X and boys did end up meeting for dinner. We had a great time as usual, ended up staying a while and watching the hockey game on TV. I got tripped up by S11 when out of the blue he says, "dad, I really want a little sister". X heard this too I believe as we gazed at each other, I know I was thinking about girl we lost during pregnancy and choked up for a second, and out of nowhere signed "I love you" to X. She melted instantly. When S12 was a baby and in recovery from his brain injuries, the doctors predicted S12 would no be able to communicate verbally, at leasy effectively. So we had to learn to sign while teaching him to speak (and let me say, I was never really good at it). I don't know what made me do it, it just happened, but it was well received.

Anyway, we ended up having to leave as most of the other patrons were getting a bit agittated with S12 cheering the opposing team, St. Louis (in the hockey world, St. Louis vs. the Blackhawks is like the Bears Vs. Packers) so we left, plus had already had a good fill of drafts.

I took them 'home' and of course the boys wanted me to come in for a bit, I accepted as it is the holidays so police patrols are up and my neighbor just got arrested for a DUI so that gets you to think more carefully and my cousin who also had a DUI has been preaching to everybody about it after the neighbor got caught.

Suffice it to say, it was bed time for the boys, so I put them to bed, they were estatic, and hung out with X for a bit. i ended up having to run to the store for her for toilet paper, so I figured I'm probably not driving home and grabbed a bottle of Bailey's like old times.

We enjoyed a couple, my cousin texted "we need to talk" and I replied her that was not in the shape to drive at the moment. X ended up falling asleep on the oppsite end of the couch with me rubbing her feet at the other end. Not too long after, I fell out as well.

Something jolted us both awake at 3:30 in the morning. X said she was cold and went to lay on her bed in blanket to warm up. I wasn't too sure if I shoul leave or not, so I went and sat on the bed next to her, ended up laying my head on belly for while before she got uncomfortable and had to readjust. She layed on her side with plenty of room on her backside, so I coudln't resist and asked if she'd mind if I joined her, of course she said not at all.

Oh man, if that wasn't the most comfortable place to be. Laying there with my W as we used to do night in and night for years, and then nothing. She apparently like it too as she took my hand from around her belly and placed it on her breast.

I can not tell you the amount of self control I exerted and we just layed there peacfuly and slept a bit more before the time I'd have to get going and she needed to get ready for work.

This is truly going to be far better than anything we've had before, I can feel it. Later this morning she sent me a text saying taht she doesn't care what anyone says, she's in love with me. :blsuh:

I know, getting all giddy, but hey, that romance for ya, and one thing I've always stunk at expressing to her. This time around, I'm not holding anything back and saying what's on my mind and she loves it.