Positives for today.... agreed to disagree with H on touchy issue had nice phone conversation with H Made Christmas cookies with S and S's friend talked to inlaws twice went to noon AA meeting got freelance package from book publisher's gonna write another book! Good day...thanks to God!
Hope all is well in your snowy neck of the woods Thank you so much for taking the time to visit my thread and offer your advice! I really appreciate it
Hope to talk to you again soon,
Misty
"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."
here's the email I sent H today You can return anything you bought me....or give it to someone else. I don't care anymore. Your lack of concern for my feelings is the bottom line in this marriage...I am working my ass off to make things better between us...and then, I get a call from you that says you are in Anchorage. Turns out the number is at a fork lift place in Anchorage...perhaps something to do with your folks barged items???
Anyway, that's where the caller id said you were when I talked to you and when I call it back the woman who answered at first denies calling, I say I have caller Id and it's on my caller Id and when I asked her last name she mentions the names Radford and shivers....stumbling, as if she doesn't know her own name, trying then to say her teenager might have called here ...from an Anchorage business to Homer...yeah right...and then she's on the other line with her HUSBAND..I called back and before I could say a word she hung up. Found out it's a business....in Anchorage. Not hard to get info..whatever Paul....what's worst is your reaction to me being upset...the day before our anniversary...when I think things are getting better...the [censored] starts again....and you call me a slut and a crazy person...rather than try to reassure me .......you don't love me...it's obvious. All the petite fours in the world and the biggest tree in the world can not replace kindness and love, Paul....anytime I am upset you blame my meds or me being crazy and I am sick of it....
Suzanne Radford is a pig and I said so and it pissed you off and you defended her....why? Told me Meow....didn't say I was prettier, didn't try to make them see that we were getting along by putting your hands on me at the dinner or talking to me at all....and the coat that is here has never been explained either.
Perhaps you drive to Anchorage to see someone else...not to save on flight money. After all it puts miles on your truck and is very inconvenient...and maybe I just have been too naive all along...I'm tired and sad and I can't take this anymore.... I love you very much...but not enough to allow you to talk to me the way you do.....
Let's see an attorney after the New Year's holiday is over, before you go back to work. Let's try to be civil....please. I want Christmas to be as good as possible for Dillon. You can have your gifts...I don't want mine. Just the ones Dillon got me.
uhm? excuse me but WTF happend to bring this change in attitude about? I was under the impression that things were going well for you and that you were happy?
I have just had it. The email explains what happened. I have kept a good attitude, db'd, and tried my hardest to make things work. My self esteem is too high to tolerate his crap anymore. Am going to get through the holidays and then get out of this. I am choosing not to hurt anymore. Love takes two.
