feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

UPDATE on last night - I had the itch to go out to a nice dinner and maybe dancing but the devil wasn't available lol (my party friends) so I ended up changing and going out to dinner with a girlfriend. She wanted to know about my sitch - she was shocked cuz she is a H fan. She used to think he was the greatest H and she is now divorced (her h left her for OW) so my H is now off the pedestal.

I waited for H to come home to see me leave and I said I was going shopping (I never go shopping at night) so I left for 2 hours. I came back and he said very few words to me - he went to bed without saying goodnight as usual. I go to bed asking God to help me sleep and forgive me for the resentment towards this man next to me.

I wake up this morning feeling so tired and drained. I felt like I haven't slept peacefully forever. H even said this morning "I am just not getting any sleep." I'm sure he is stressed too. Who wouldn't be? is the cheater actually feeling guilty?
(sorry being angry right there)

Ok...off to read you guys' stuff.

Luv