RW gave you some great advice. It is going to be hard for a little while. But, I would challenge you to look inside yourself rather than allow yourself to be conquered by negative emotions. Realize you can handle all of this sitch, that you will experience more personal growth than you probably ever have and that you will find strnegth you never thought possible. And you will, if you let yourself.
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And I have been thinking about going to counseling.
...is a wonderful idea. It might even be covered by your (or H's) health insurance. I never went to C for myself before the bomb, but have been many times since. Worth every cent.
Where do you draw your strength? If you are religious, pray (I do several times daily for strength, discernment, wisdom). Whatever the source, get in touch with it.
And there is a fun side to all this mess. Doing things for yourself. What do you enjoy? What have you not done you have wanted to? They don't have to be expensive trips. They can be little things like finding private time just to read, think or just BE. Maybe it's getting some exercise - go for a walk in the park or around the neighborhood. Is there a YMCA near you or a gym?
