Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Funny K! I cant imagine a boss here saying something like that

Feeling a bit down, tired of sensing things and feeling insecure as a consequence. He's been a bit 'distant' this week, well, distant is too strong a word.. I said to him he was a bit aloof and he agreed he was a bit, then said aloof was too strong a word. He said he did feel a bit moody perhaps, but couldnt explain why.

He's still not wanting to ML (he was never like that pre-bomb and pre-breakdown). He says its not me, I'm gorgeous and s*xy and he really doesnt want me to feel worried or insecure at all, it makes him feel worse.. he said he will go to a new doctor and ask about CBT.. he's still taking all his supplements (not ADs).

As loving and reassuring as he has been, I still feel like I am standing on an icefloe.. it looks and feels like solid ground, but it isnt. I did tell him this and he was very reassuring, as always..