Had a great day involved with a lot of church and work stuff, very good things happening there. Also got a car repair issue taken care of, which I worked on most of the evening yesterday. I hate when mechanics try and screw me over, but I stood up to them and it worked. Feels good.

Deciding to try more contact and see what happens, I called W at 10:15, it sounded like I woke her up. She told me she was up, but had had a very bad day. She was supposed to get lots of projects done with FIL, and didn't take her pain medicine because it makes her loopy. She hates showing him how badly she's really doing, because he just gets mad. He blames me for all her migraines and head trauma pain (she has both). We were in a rollover accident right before getting married, and he blames me because I let her drive. I think the major cause is HIM, but I digress.

Because she didn't take her pain medicine, she ended up in bed all day. He still came over and worked on some things at her apartment for her. I can't help but wonder if one of these "projects" was supposed to be filing for D, but that's idle speculation.

She sounded slurred as she told me this, but it was a nice talk. I asked her how the stepping stones out front I put in for her are, and she said she might need more. Then "don't come and surprise me with them, I can smell your brain burning". I told her I wouldn't do that against her wishes. After that, she fell asleep.

3 different meetings tomorrow, with some close friends, a pastor, my counselor, and then recovery group at night. Interested to see what they say about all this, and my DBing friends here as well.

I might even send her flowers with a "hope you feel better". Not red roses or anything, but she does like tulips. It's nice to be in "what the hell" mode. I mean, what's the worst that could happen? Divorce?


Me: 30
W: 28
T 8, M 6
S: 7-27-2007
W filed (again) 3-2011
Served 8-2011
Responded, now dark
"I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK