Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

I just came back from my wine tasting party and had a good time while there, but now I am sad for some reason.

Well when WH arrived here from work, I was all dressed up, looking good, and do you know that he NEVER ONCE made eye contact with me? I swear he didn't even look in my direction!
I take that to be good because I hope it means he was a little bothered by me going out. But it scares me a little too because I don't want it to backfire on me. I mean I never told him what I was doing, never pretended to be going on a date, and was friendly and not over done! Jeans and a cute blouse with hair and makeup and perfume.

So the event was good--just as I was working up the nerve to talk to a stranger, a nice woman approached me and then we got a small group going and then I even got a compliment on my looks!

It was killing me while I was there because I know WH would looove the place and they are going to add a cheese shop to the store and he loves all different types of cheese. Well anyway I ended up buying a couple of bottles, one he likes and one we both like.

So on my way home, I called to let him know I was on my way since I was running a little late and also told him I had to stop to get some food.

Then when I walked in I had the wine in hand. He didn't say an effing word! No questions, nothing! Can't you see I am carrying a wine bag? So I asked about our son and this time he did make eye contact with me but it was fleeting.

So I showed him the wine, he seemed a little interested, but I didn't tell him what I did or anything, and who knows if he could guess. I mean I could have gone on a date and met at a wine bar and bought wine! Sounds like fun, actually! And we both have stopped to get food after going out with friends for drinks before!

Maybe I am sad because I wish I didn't have to do this GAL without him.