Dont ignore the warning signs (warning, Im venting

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Don't have a choice. She wants the divorce ASAP and Im not stopping her. Im getting the house (its paid for). Ill give her what she wants and keep my home before she changes her mind.

Right now we are doing an amicable divorce and have the same lawyer. Ill be the one on top but this doesnt change the fact that I have a hughe gaping wound in my chest and she has zero emotions about it.

Ill move on and start dating again I guess. Im 47 so my prospects will be good I think. But I will be hurting for a long time. You cant erase 23 years of memories. At least I have my Son.

Wish she would change her mind later but she has made it perfectly clear to me that there is no chance in hell that she is ever going to get back together with me (her words).

I just cant get over how a human being that you love can do an emotional 180 on you and then become a completely different person. Ironically, to everyone else she acts like her normal loving and friendly self. I just don't get it.

I wasn't a bad husband. Not perfect though as I could have spent more time with her but that is hard to do with my job and the fact that we both have different interests. But still, I never cheated on her, gave her what she wanted, never abused her and was not an alchi or druggy.

She still refused to go into detail as to why or how she fell out of love with me. This is why I still suspect an EA or PA either recently or in her past.

This is killing me. I did find a lot of help from people at lifetwo forum but wanted to join here to discuss other aspects of my troubles. Lots of things I wanted to get off my chest, hence my venting post.

Thanks for listening.