You were expecting her position to be that she was intentionally taking advantage of you. It's like how you keep expecting her family to have some kind of underlying motivation to ask you to join them for things.
She probably just asked you for a favor. But this like so many of the other instances, you read into the smallest things. Like when she said she was home but you thought she wasn't. Who cares? You're just torturing yourself.
Go out and get a lady companion to get your mind off of her if you can't do it by now. It's been almost two years and I don't think you can't be co-dependant. I think you need someone there to take care of you or to say that what you're doing is okay.
Again, there's nothing wrong with that, but if you're going to insist on standing or whatever, then make a plan and do something about it rather than analyzing everything your W is doing.
Whatever happened to your GAL. And let me tell you, hanging out with a priest (although great) and people from the DB boards, does not constitute GAL. What have you done that doesn't involve the R with your W?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
