K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

"Nothing has worked to this point as far as bringing us to any kind of thinking about reconciliation."

Gee didn't we just have this conversation like a year ago?

Baby steps. that's your problem. You're still looking for the magic change of heart that your W is going to experience to get to reconciliation. AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN!

Be blessed with what you've gotten so far. She's okay to be around you now and not disgusted. She actually talks to you. Her family has thanked you for things. What can't you see as being an improvement. All this can be used towards R, but you just can't see it. No matter how many times everyone here has told you so.

I mean how on earth can you be asking the exact same questions you did a year ago? Have you really not changed at all?

Stuck,

I do see it. I realize things have gotten better than they have been in a long time. I am grateful for it. It has been pointed out to me and I agree. That is one of the reasons I am hesitant to finish this off.

As far as a change of heart aint gonna happen goes. Can any of us really see the future and say that for sure? I don't think so. Change of hearts to happen. Look at my MIL. I would never have predicted that to occur ever. Somehow it did by my constant actions of being kind to her. It finally had some movement in her heart. And I thought she was more difficult to move than my W. Anything is possible and the impossible does happen. Will it? I don't know. I would have said no way with MIL and I would have been wrong there.

I am trying to keep what little bit of faith I have left alive. Granted I am holding onto it tight because it is all I have left at this point.

You are right in that I shouldn't ask the same questions that I did a year ago. But as circumstances change, the questions come up again in my mind.

Kevin