I'm blushing...you guys and gals help me to feel so supported and appreciated! Thanks!
H- has called three times today. He's a bit worried. I have been off meds ...not by choice, prescriptions are from a mail in place and prescription got screwed up somehow....have been doing good so far, but am starting to sleep more and get hours screwed up....a bit of depression sliding in...need to be wary and sleep, eat, and get out on a regular basis. Hopefully med sitch will be rectified soon. The lack of daylight here doesn't help..it's grey by 4pm and dark by 5pm....not getting really light out til after 8am. So, that adds to me wanting to sleep all day...not good.
Anyway, H is worried, but did not nag. Just called at different times in day to make sure my butt was out of bed ...LOL...it was! I was on computer...
Will probably take son to bible youth group tonight and then hit an AA meeting..
Smile everyone...we make our own days good or bad! So let's all make today a good day!
ARRRRGH! Depression getting worse. Having hard time getting to sleep and then worse time getting up in mornings. Got out today with friend.
Hubby is getting worried. Told friend about it. She made me feel better..said, "He REALLY loves you and doesn't want to lose you again." I need to talk to him and let him know that I am working on myself still...and that I am combating the depression. Wish my meds would show up in the mail...it's gonna take a few weeks after they get here to get back on track.
Anyway, still trying. Eating everyday. Trying to get to bed at normal hour and get up at normal hour. Going to AA.
PMA when awake and not sleeping...it's so hard to keep myself going though..just want to sleep.
Tomorrow have appointment with C. Hope it helps.
God only gives us what we can handle...thank goodness.
It's a little after 10pm here. I am going to try to get off computer by 11pm tonight.
H called. He had a good day at work. I told him I missed him. When he didn't respond, I jokingly said, oh, you miss me,too...how sweet. H laughed a little. I told H I was fighting depression, but not to worry. I have C session tomorrow and am doing things to combat depression while waiting for shrink appointment and for meds to arrive. H did not really comment at first. Then just asked who I was seeing tomorrow...I said C...he said ok. Asked H about work. H told me about problems with one guy...affecting everyone. Shared a little scenerio where h had made a funny, cutting remark. This is good, h is telling me more about his work sitch. H is opening up a bit. Used to not do this. I believe this is because I am becoming a better listener and asking more questions, rather than doing all the talking.
Am thinking about moving over to KLA...not sure. Am I ready? Is that where I should be? It's been four months of hard core db'ing now and things are sooooo much better. Lots of room for improvement...but that has to continue to start with me.
Okay, I've bumped myself back up now. Gonna check on some others.
ROFLMAO...it's 12:32. I am still on the boards....I am going to bed now...just had to tell on myself.... H comes home Tuesday..I won't be around much for a week..h is only home for a week this time...so will be spending lots of quality time with him...guess I am just getting in lots of board time now to prepare...LOL or I am becoming addicted to posting here.....tehehehe...at least it's a healthier addiction than drinking.
Good morning all. Well, I am up and out of bed. That's a good thing. I've been up since 7 am...that's a good thing. My H called already to check up on me...that's a good thing. We had a nice chat before he had to take a phone call and rush off...H is at work, so H can't always focus on me, me, me when H calls...that's ok...H made the effort to call me...that's the important thing. I have to understand that H is at work and is at work making money to support me and my S, so gotta let h work and respect that h is in h's work environment when H calls.
Gonna jump around and see how all are doing today.
I have my health today. I have food and shelter. I have a beautiful home with a gorgeous view of Kachemak Bay. I can see mountains, ocean, and glaciers from my living room, dining room, kitchen, bedroom, and yup, from my computer desk! My H loves me. My S loves me. I love me! God loves me! Family loves me! Especially my mom... I am writing again. I am writing professionally again. I have real friends in AA and great cyber friends here. Today, there is fog across bay...but fog is lifting from MY LIFE! I am sober today. My dog loves me, too! My H comes home soon... As long as I keep a PMA, then things are gonna be ok...no, things are gonna be GREAT.
