Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Still staying Dim. Talked to H's best friend. He thought H was drinking alot lately as H described being hung over the next day(might explain the zombiness last Sunday)-which is pretty unusual for H.

Monday night H came over to have dinner with the girls while I went to book club. Both girls had eaten and had lots of studying to do so H ended up eating alone while D14 talked to him a bit. H let out a few zingers my way while I was home.

Said he was the "bigger" person b/c he moved out as it was clear I wasn't going to. I stated calmly that I didn't want him to leave and I wanted to stay married. H unfortunately saw the box containing one of his Christmas presents( a light therapy lamp- I know sounds like a great gift right??? ;)) and said he hoped I had the receipt b/c he didn't like it..thought I was diagnosing him(our MC suggested it to H)..

So H is fully self-absorbed, angry, depressed...venting at me as the cause of everything wrong...I really am having an easy time not contacting him, but am not doing so well not thinking about him. I am definitely not ignoring my needs and am focusing on myself more. I'm hopeful that the anger will dissipate someday soon.