I guess for me right now, the big thing is focusing on keeping the behaviors I changed...changed. I think db'ing needs to become a way of life in some ways, and I am struggling to adjust. The old me pokes her head out sometimes and wants to yell, or get selfish and demand things from my H that he is not able or ready to give me. I am trying to learn that I don't always need more: more love more attention more time more money and so forth.
I guess I am trying hard now to accept what I have and make the best of it. Making the best of it is the key! I try hard to appreciate the fact that hubby calls and ends call with I love you...even if we don't have much to say to one another in between the hello and the I love you, goodnight, some days. I remember that he may be tired, overworked, or just plain bored being cooped up at the oil refinery. When I get upset that he does not seem interested in some of the things that interest me, I remind myself that for years I purposely turned away from watching football with him, and that sports is one of his big interests. So, I try to remain hopeful that as I participate in his interests more and more, he may begin to participate or exhibit interest in some of mine. I also think that we can try to acquire some mutual interests and share them ....we used to do that. Anyway, enough out of me here. I'm gonna go bounce around the boards and see what's happening with some other folks on the bb.
Just for today....I will work on my attitude and on my perspective on things. I will try to see the good in every situation, rather than the bad.
