The continuing saga of P ...

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Update.

Got a card today from MIL for me and for D.

Mine said 'happy and healthy 2010' and D's was from 'Nana X and Papa Y' which was a little strange I thought. There was also a note on D's card to say 'Hope to see you in 2010 x'.

I'm not reading anything into it, I just thought it was just a little strange. They are not her natural grandparents and given that her D (my W) hasn't sent D or me a Xmas card or Condolence card I thought it strange that MIL would actually still acknowledge their role in D's life as I felt that they fully supported W and I haven't heard anything from them in over 4 months. Yet, in the last three days I've had a condolence card with a letter, a phone call (I've yet to listen to) and 2 xmas cards. I don't know. I can't explain it. My gut just says to me it's strange ... move on.

Spoke to one of W's friends today as well as I had to pick D up from school for an appointment. W's friend works in the school. She apologised for not responding to any of my texts from a few weeks ago as her phone got water in it and broke and she's lost all her info. I actually thought she was closing ranks with W, which would be understandable, but she is a nice girl and I was a little upset by that. However, seems like it was just a normal 'one of those things' that caused it. Whether she is telling the truth or not matters little. She has opened the door again for me to chat to her. That is another communication channel to W. When I went in today I had my trousers, shirt and nice cologne on ... might get back, might not but you women notice that sort of thing

Today is my first day of stopping this cr*p about reading too much into things with FB etc. I will slip and I'm okay with that. Yes I am detaching and yes I feel that I was actually using those sitch's to feel a bit of power back but I need to reiterate to friends - I don't want to know what W is up to. I feel that has slipped lately. What I am / was doing isn't helping me.

I am looking forward to Xmas for the first time in years and I have a 'night out' arranged for just after it (although it will likely just me and D's mum but it's still a night out, few drinks, a dance and some fun).