SG, thanks for clearing that up. I really wasn't getting it.
CG, not smothering W. I probably ought to chill out on the mind reading though.
You're welcome.
Now, I am saying this in the nicest way possible. Yes, you do smother her. You spend waaaay too much time obsessing over every detail about her and her life. It doesn't matter what she does or why. You really need to put her totally out of your mind. It doesn't matter where you sit. None of what you worry about daily matters. What matters is that she has moved on, and you need to stop caring what she does.
You may say that you are just venting here, but I have a feeling you're putting out a needy vibe to her, even if you don't intend to.