Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I know I deserve so much better. I think that maybe our past problems, and how I dealt with them, kind of made me a doormat. It's almost like I feel like I DESERVE this treatment.

Like, I am disguisted by what she is doing, but I still feel so much love for her-and that makes me feel guilty, or stupid because if someone did this to one of my kids, I would feel completely different.

I dunno, I WANT to really detach, and just let go, and I ahve to figure out a way to do that-in a healthy manner.

She has done SO much to hurt me. I mean, how can I ever forgive that?

The sad thing is, if she called me right now, I would set boundaries, and take her back. And that makes me feel kind of sad, because I DO deserve better.

Trent, I agree, but adultry is just so much to deal with and process, and is different from a discipline problem. I cherished my wife-love her so much. It just hurts really deep. I have never felt this type of pain, and am struggling with it.