Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Puppy,
Thank you. I can see the rape analogy, it makes sense. I feel like a victim sometimes and struggle with it.

P17,
great advice. I guess the big question will come when/if she comes out of the "fog".

Will I want her back? Will I take her back?

Will all of this legal stuff do anything towards the "fog"?

I know I am asking questions, that can't really be answered right now. I guess I want results-NOW.

I have to trust that everything I am doing will benefit me in the long run. I hurt for my W. I ache to tell her that it's ok, to come back to me.

I know I can't do it, but I long to help her-she doesn't want my help-she HATES me right now.

Deep,
I do love her VERY much-even after all of the absolutely disgusting things she has done/is doing. I feel horrible that I can't get angry or just say screw her, let her do whatever she wants to do. I WANT to do that, but I just can't yet...