Originally Posted By: Puppy Dog Tails
My dear Hoozh,

That is as insightful and introspective of a post (or any other correspondence) as I have EVER seen from you, and you've communicated a lot since I've known you.

I'm exhausted at the moment, and can hardly keep my eyes open, but I will say that -- based on what you have shared about yourself and your marriage -- I don't think I can disagree with ANY of what you've written here. I think it "rings true," and it's a good thing that you're able to identify your role in your past relationship dysfunction.

You're a pretty amazing lady, Hoozhawhatsit. smile

Puppy

Awwwww, Pup! It's people like you who keep me going, literally. The funny thing is that none of these realizations is new for me, but this may be the first time I've written it all down together, and they continue to sink in to deeper levels and in a more cohesive way. I feel like I process and process and process and get lost in my head sometimes, and at times I've been so focused upon getting to that kernel of truth that will free me from self-destructive patterns that I push too hard. Unfortunately, these things take time and not just effort or will to accomplish! Thanks for the affirmation and support--always.


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012