What do you do? Nothing . . . FOR NOW. To everything there is a season. There will be plenty of time for more OFFENSE, but now is not that time.
Your priority upon landing was to protect yourself legally -- DONE.
And to spend time with your boys -- DOING.
And you've also exposed to your CofC -- DONE.
Your pain right now is entirely EMOTIONAL, and perfectly understandable. I found that praying to God to take my pain away just enough -- for THAT DAY -- helped. Every day, I:
- read one Psalm; - read one Proverbs' - prayed to God for wisdom, clarity, and discernment in my sitch; that I would "see what I need to see, and hear what I need to hear, and not MORE than I needed to see and hear," to get thru my day, and also that He would put people in my life who would help me -- THAT DAY.
And the rest in it; "Be still, and know that I Am God."
I know, it's damned hard. Dr. Willard Harley gives talks on adultery, and says it is worse than rape -- because rape is usually by a stranger, and this is done to you by someone you know and love, and supposedly foresaked all others for. He even had a woman come up to him after one of his talks to tell him that SHE had been raped once, and that he was right in his characterization of the pain. If you've never had the one you love do this to you, you simply cannot understand the depth of it, I'm convinced.
