Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

gima,
I don't know what I want right now-I just know that I hurt because of her destructive behavior. How could I ever take her back after what she has done/is doing? What would that make me?

I will be calm, cool, and collected, just like every time I have been around her.

My emotions are all over the place. I just can't believe this is really happening. I see her, and I just think "why doesn't she run to me, and love me, and tell me she's sorry?" Why doesn't she do that?

Why doesn't my wife want to be with me?

I don't understand what is going on with her right now.

Also, how do I just let my wife go from guy to guy, looking to find my "replacement"?

How do I just let go? I'm struggling with this.

I am very emotional today, and am just struggling with all of this damaging info, I have come across the last 2 days.