Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

I've read "I Do Again," which is a story about a couple that married again seven years after her mid-life crisis forced an unwanted divorce on an unsuspecting husband.

It gave me comfort and alarmed me a bit. It's a really good book though. I read it in one day.

I know I'll always be involved in the BIG events with W. But if we get a D I doubt I'll "always be around" her. Without the everyday raising of the kids, I can see us going months, years without speaking. That's the way she is now with her best friends. The only person she consistently talks to is her mother. The day her mother dies will either be a seriously disastrous day for W or liberating in a way.

Here's a point, the arc of someone's life can change profoundly with just one small event.

That's one thing that is a bit exciting. My life is now a much emptier canvass. I'm not sure what is next for me anymore.

That's not all bad.