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[awest1217]

Alright...so last night H came over because he wanted to and because of me not feeling well. I am doing better so that is good, but still some small side effects. I said that I needed diapers for S so H said we could all go and get them. He then took us to a small italian restaurant. It was more fancy than we thought, but it was really nice. The conversation was light and I always made sure to keep it going. A couple of times I caught H's eye and once I think I saw a glimmer of love that I once did. H then stayed at the house until 10pm which was awesome. We watched some TV together while S slept and just had fun. (The only side note is I know that OW was with her husband because it was his birthday yesterday so H might have been using us as a distraction).

Then this morning...I am driving to work and the car stops working, and the check engine light comes on. I am just past where H is living so I call. He tells me to turn the car off and start it again to see if the light is still on. I then get a little upset because I am already upset about the car (long history of car problems and I thought with getting a newer one it wouldn't happen anymore). I wanted H to say I am on my way. Not tell me how to fix it. So the car starts to at least work again although the light is on, and I tell H I will take it to the mechanic and don't worry about me because I will be fine. I dropped S off at school and started towards work. On the way, H calls and asks where I am. He said to pull over, so I did. He then switched cars with me and said he would take it in after work because I had a longer way to drive and didn't want the car to keep breaking down on me. I started to cry and he asked why. I just said I was upset. Later he called to see if I was ok and why I was crying. I said because of the car and the expense and because he didn't just come right away. He said he was on his way right away, but wanted me to try some things first just in case. HE said he has always wanted to be the one to have to miss work to help his wife. He wants to be my husband and take care of me. Not me blow him off and call my family to help instead of him. HE wants to be the one to help me. I said I understand that, but he isn't home yet. OW is still in the picture and I although I want him to be the one to always take care of me. He may not be there. He just said that he understood where I am coming from.

I then thanked him a ton and left it at that. THe car is fine. I just screwed the gas cap on incorrectly...which made me feel dumb for overreacting and crying, but it was awesome to have H come to the rescue.

Another side note, H isn't talking to the first ever OW as much as he was, which is good, but since she has come back, he has started to do things on the internet again like he used to so she is a bad influence. I checked his iPod for that information. I understand...don't snoop, but he won't tell me otherwise. I just need to know the truth, and he needs to admit to everything before we can really move on.