Waiting More Than a Dozen Years

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There was something I wished to clarify.

I further assume (I do know what happens when I assume) you are now deciding what you want to do about that ... and you're leaning towards staying married and accepting a celibate life on the basis that you now have some evidence that you are not worth fighting for (sexually)?

I am looking at what to do next. The message that "you dominate everything and everyone" with the trail of dead relationships has gotten through. So, that aspect has lightened up.

For the moment I am accepting a celibate life because it is stable, it maintains an important principle of fidelity to the relationship, and there is a certain predictability to it, not because that I have made the statement that I am not worth fighting for. Rather, I've already gone more than 111,280 hours (or more than 4600 days). Will it matter if that extends longer?

The question I am asking myself is do I want to go through another divorce and then search for and create the relationship that I sought 24 years ago(and as I pointed out to her, very clearly stated at the outset of this relationship)?