karen.. I wish I could make him see it's not optional. He's such a dreamer though.
I've been really stressed today. I'm so glad my holiday preparations are completed for the year or I'd be a basket case. My aunt needed someone to talk to tonight and so I offered an ear. Her inlaws just moved in with her and her husband and son. She welcomed them in, but I know she wasn't prepared for the actual experience of having them there. The conversation tonight brought up experiences I had staying with my ex for a month at his families house. It was an absolute nightmare. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Still the memories aren't help my feelings this week.
My ex was such a jerk towards me. It hurts every time I remember how he treated me so much differently than anyone else in his life. I tried so hard to get his attention and get to know him and yet just about every word and action toward me was forced and often times just plain rude.
Grrr. I hate this feeling so much. It's the feeling of rejection mixed in with guilt for even feeling this way in the first place. I need a hug and there is no one around to really give me one.
I made some awsome fudge last night. Maybe a piece will help me feel better... you're all invited too!
