Pls help--confused and fearful

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I'll be honest, I think I'm wanting to hear him talk me out of it. Hate thinking he's capable of such cruelty. No, I won't warn him.

I know you want him to talk you out of it. You want him to say to you 'honey, this is not what I want. don't do this. Let's try again'. You know this is going to cause him pain and you don't want to inflict that upon him. However by doing exactly that, you are doing a 180 and DBing him. Think about it that way. He doesn't think for ONE MINUTE that you will do this.

Ugh. Gotta accept I have to go on with this and get the financial support. In my state, there isn't legal separation. So I can file for just the temp support. Hate having to start down this path. I've got to accept it. It must be done. No wondering to what H will be thinking either.

Good. That's it exactly. Protect yourself. Worry about the M later, if that's what you want.