I am struggling tonight, feeling mostly grief. I can't stop the tears from coming. I can't help but wonder why doesn't H miss me. Why is he choosing to walk away from me? He is choosing to stop loving me. Am I really that horrible? Was our M really that bad? It must have been because he is gone.

I am sorry. I usually don't go down this path. I should know better, but tonight I just can't help it.

I pray that tomorrow will be better.

Me & H: 33 yrs
S: 4 & 6
D: 2
M: 9 yrs
ILYBNILWY: 8/09
SEPARATED: 9/09
The Beginning