Thanks Sandy, it means alot that you typed your fingers to the bone....I hear you and i am trying to do what you have said....The thing is, we have been divorced for a little over a year.....I have definitely gone out and sowed my wild oates and she knows about most of it....we live in a very small town.....This time last year I think that really bothered her, but now I think she is used to it......
I have made a decision to not date right now because I dated a lady that was wonderful, but since I still had feelings for my ex was not able to be what she wanted.....I will not do that to anyone else....
I went over to ex's house a minute ago to take her a check....She was out in the front yard when I drove up....We talked a minute about my mom that has cancer....They have always been close and she wanted an update....I told her I had to go, but she said why don't you come in for a minute......I did and we talked for awhile and then I said I had things to do.....I went to the back of the house to say bye to my son and then told her bye.....She hugged me and thanked me for the check and for listening to all of her problems today and that was it....
Sandi, you were almost a WAW and you know way more than I do.....The thing is, we are already divorced and she knows alot about what I have been up to....She has acted jealous in the past, but has also said that the way I have acted, it seems as if I was just as ready to leave this marriage as she was.....That's not true, but given my freedom, I have taken advantage of it.....The thing is, I know now what is important and that is her and my two boys.....I did neglect her for years and she tried to tell me, but I would not listen....I know how to make her happy now, but as she said the other night, there are years of build-up now....She completely shut down and is just now starting to act like her old self.....I don't want to screw this up....The thing is, after the bomb, I tried for awhile and then said screw it and started the different lady every night thing.....Real fun for awhile but got old quick....I know what you said about keeping her guessing, but I did that.....She even said at one point she did not know me anymore......I will follow the advice you give me, but just wanted to give you more info......Thanks
