Trying to keep hope alive

[scared n alone]

Well, He picked up the kids today. He won't even come in the house. He knocks and goes to his car. My 5 year old didn't want to go today. Not because of daddy, but he had an argument with his older brother. Soo, he started driving away. I politely stopped him and told him he needed to take him with you. He responded he doesn't want to go. My five year old was throwing a huge tantrum. I told my husband he is five you you are his dad. Deal with it.

H got out of the car and put S in the car to go. I felt he should get them in the good and bad of times.

We communicated a bit today, but he DEF doesn't want to talk to me. What is he afraid of??? I think he is afraid that he still has those feelings that he is trying to suppress. I don't know.....I guess that is my hoping coming out!

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!