13 years ago, when we were married, I was a senior drill instructor pumping 88 fresh recruits through boot camp every 13 weeks. I was the “alpha” male she fell in love with. Over the years and after I retired, I lost myself, by pleasing my mate with misguided intentions and becoming the “nice guy”(wimp) I thought she wanted. Over the past few weeks, and through the insight offered here on this forum, I have soul searched myself to death, and now realize that I was at my peak in self confidence, and the best physical shape in my life when we met and married. I was happy with who I was and did not need a woman to fulfill me. I will not post to this forum again until I do the work necessary and return to the man I was..confident, and content in my own skin.
