Is this the end of my marriage?

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This has taken me 5 months to work out. 5 lines from 5 months of soul searching.

I am actually very proud. I kept breaking my list down. Over and over and over. And worked on it each day.

You should be proud mate. Some people don't get this stuff in a lifetime. 5 months is pretty good going. Sometimes I think if only our WAS's could see us now ... what would they think? We are better people than they will ever know.

I also took my ring out of its box last night and placed it in my wallet. I am going to carry it with me again all the time as a reminder that I have 5 long term goals to work on every day.
The ring will now symbolize my promise to myself.
I think I may buy a chain and wear it around my neck with the ring on it.

Maybe we should do this together mate. I have been thinking about putting the ring 'on' again for a while. The last time I actually wore it on my ring finger it felt wrong. Maybe around my neck? But then that would symbolise to W that I still pine for her. For me it's about commitment, nothing more. It's food for thought.

So I have a constant reminder of what Complacency can cause. Perhaps a white gold chain which would be kudos to Thomas Covenant, the Unbeliever

You sounds like your blaming yourself there mate. Complacency on both sides maybe?

Its neither a happy day or a sad day. Its one of those 2 steps forward day.

I know those days. Sad you're having to move forward and deal with this sh*t but good that you are moving forward and you are DEALING with this sh*t.