You got to do what you should / One life

[MichelleLT]

I guess I am still processing some of what happened with XH. Especially with the holidays. I can't go with RB to his family's Christmas stuff because of my retail job, so I guess I'm feeling some of the loneliness that I felt that first Christmas after XH and I S.

Hard to believe this will be the 3rd Christmas w/o him. It seems both so long ago and so recent, in so many ways I am grateful to be in a much better place, but I still miss being M and feeling "stable" (although that was obviously a bit fat delusion).

Oh well, next year I'll be in my own house! And he'll probably still be breaking up and getting back together with the SBW. *rolls eyes* Lol