You got to do what you should / One life

[Reincarnated]

Michelle - we are still waiting for pics on FB - or did I miss them?

[MichelleLT]

No, you didn't miss them. I have been supremely lazy about uploading them.

Jon, SBW = stupid b!tch wh0re

[JCJ]

That's my name for ow too

Hope all the house stuff is going well x

[MichelleLT]

They got the appliances in. Looks like someone looked at the chimney too.

Also looks like either: someone tried to break in thru the dining room window, or they dropped a box when they were getting the appliances moved/installed, cuz the window is broken. But they are fixing it.

Stuff is moving along! Gotta send a copy of my social security card over to my mortgage broker today and then my file should be complete.

[MichelleLT]

Listening to a new (to me) Shakira album

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined

And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on

So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close

You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's clear, it isn't here where you belong

Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along

But you don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

Open heart
Open heart

[mishka422]

Yet another FABULOUS song Michelle! Thanks!

[MichelleLT]

I guess I am still processing some of what happened with XH. Especially with the holidays. I can't go with RB to his family's Christmas stuff because of my retail job, so I guess I'm feeling some of the loneliness that I felt that first Christmas after XH and I S.

Hard to believe this will be the 3rd Christmas w/o him. It seems both so long ago and so recent, in so many ways I am grateful to be in a much better place, but I still miss being M and feeling "stable" (although that was obviously a bit fat delusion).

Oh well, next year I'll be in my own house! And he'll probably still be breaking up and getting back together with the SBW. *rolls eyes* Lol

[mishka422]

You are so right Michelle. He will probably still be yoyoing like he has been for years. Too bad for him.

You will have an awesome house, wonderful bf, and your fabulous life that you have created without him. GREAT!

This time of year is so hard, but since you recognize it you will be able to deal with it in a timely manner.

So, any hope of letting go of the retail job any time soon? I'm seriously considering giving mine up. It just doesn't put enough in my pocket to justify the time away from the people who need me.

[MichelleLT]

After I move.

You are right, it doesn't pay enough compared to my other job to keep it just for the money. So, I'm keeping it for the discounts!

I can do all my drapes and blinds in the house at discount (plus I know the girls in window treatments and they already filled me in about the upcoming sales). Not to mention anything I need to buy for the bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, office, etc.

We even sell furniture. I priced out a small china cabinet (about 35" wide and 70" tall) in cottage oak, with my discount, at $299!!!! My kitchen doesn't have a pantry, so my plan is to keep dishes in a china cabinet in the dining room and thus free up cabinet space for food.

[jon2911]

That's great Michelle! I know the retail sucks, but that's a lot of money savings.

I'm feeling the same way. 3rd Christmas since the separation, but I got to be with her last year so it feels like the first time all over again. Hang in there.