Never lose hope my friend - Sometimes during this journey, it is all you will have.
I read that you pray...
Now would be a good time to speak to your Father...
Tell him your concerns, worries, fears, doubts etc...
You will feel better once you unload it to Him.
Let His Grace cover you...
Let Him take your worries away.
A verse that may help you right now -
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~