I will verify as I can but I don't want to outright ask him because quite frankly I don't know if I believe him or if he is just saying whatever to ease his own guilt.
I hear he has been putting out feelers to his family about going there for Christmas because he will be alone...
I wish he would realize it is his choice to be alone...
He knows he has a family that loves him and misses him very, very much and no matter what has happened, I would never want him be alone at Christmas.
Journaling~
Last night I had a great night...
I went to a dinner for the ladies at Church and while I was initially torn about going (because of my little one and how clingy he has become), I decided I needed to do this for myself and I am so glad I went.
Fellowship, food, gift exchanging, laughs all around and wonderful friends.
I have not been that relaxed since H left...
I spent about 3 hours just enjoying myself with no worries.
I checked on the boys before I went in and then promptly left my cares at the door.
I didn't let any portion of my situation cross my mind the whole time I was there and now I realize how much I needed that break...
I awoke this morning in a wonderful peaceful mood...
My little one was in a foul mood (I didn't get home before he went to bed) but I didn't allow it to affect my mood and he ended up being in a better mood by the time we went to school.
I spent a good amount of time in prayer last night and my feelings have been once again eased.
I "know" all will be just fine - That is the feeling I have today.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
