Mediation is tomorrow. My goal is to strongly maintain my position on our financial agreement and custody, but not show any anger. In the past, I let my anger get the best of me. I want to be very practical about everything, and even try to use a little humor.
I've been thinking about my life, and I realize that I've been married for 10 years, but with luck I've got 50+ to go. I have to think of the future now, and realize that acommodating my W cannot be my priority any more. I need to think of me, and my kids, and truthfully, a possible future wife and other kids who may depend on me.
I need to be frank about the liklihood of my marrying someone else, and possibly having another child with them (less likely), or accepting some amount of responsibility for providing for their children (more likely). My life planning, including this separation agreement, can no longer merely focus on my kids, which is very sad, but I'm noticing also has a strange gentle optimism about it, realizing that a new future is out there waiting for me.
I avoid facing the reality that half of my kids lives will now be out of my view, as it is too sad think of for long.
